16 December 2006 - hiM...

i met him ttwo years ago.... at feb 14th 2004....he sent me the first msg... just a casual msg of " hi , happi valentine day, now dating w ur bf ah? .............." smth lidat. just ver casual... and i replied.. we started chatting....

starting we just sms while or send those stupid forward sms... to shoot people one... then we begin to chat every nite... it is become a routine... one day neva chat will seem empty .... time flies.. and in bet we shared mani probs .. we are ver close friends... n we will alwys mk msg for each other... those w care n concern.. whenva i met w prob, or sick , or sad, he wil be there to cheer me up.. his care reali touches me.. tt where i fall in love w him first...

tt moment he likes a ger... he seem ver attracted to her... her name is julye. ( a very very pretty ger, haha. is reali pretty worx. ) .. i tried to help him in anyway i can to woo her... halfway thr,  i confessed my feelings, i duno where to get the courage bt i jus confessed... haha.... he rejected me =( he said " i pray to god, n god says is better for us to remain single" he said y nt we be bro n sis lo...  

was very sad, the next day didnt wan to see him, oso ps lah, i ignored him. then during recess he came to my table n sit beside me... then he talked to me.. he still can joke lo. haha. then i burst into laughters. trying to minimise the ps.... then at nite i agreed to be his mei... i put aside my feelings n tell myself since is nt mine, shall nt force.. ( true mah , love cant be force) ..  tt period i tried my very very best to help him to woo her, like her bday , i gif him ideas wat to buy, then i bring him go buy the present, his present for her is a bottle of stars own  mk, i even teach hw to mk stars. haha end up he mk de nicer than mine... yup times goes on.....

on 21st July 2005, he sent me a sms... it goes like this " one day kor come forward to u and tell u i wan to break ties with u, n u will walk off sadly w/o knowing that i wanted to start smth special with u " .. ( smth lidat, btw this is original a forward msg by me, he edited it) ... n that is how our journey started... almost everday makan w the guys (lc,wl,cs,kh,wc....) , that is hw i so gd friends w them..

til here the HIM of cuZ is nOnE other thAn :

today , we are still together after so much happened in the past.. we are together for 2years near 5mths... looks like a short time , bt to me is long, cuz in bet there are too many struggles and conflicts...

i want to say a big SRY to him.....for everything, oso sry for ystd i gif him a bad remark ---- stupid. haha... stupid for choosing the stupid job tat is frm 3pm to 11pm, very tedious kip carry pc, rest half hr, work frm mon to sat, xmas oso work, cant use hp, cant drink water mus ask permission, go toilet oso must ask, n he do this job instead of data e entry $6 per hr, this stupid job is $5.50 per hr... both oso same lasted for two weeks..... still im sry ... reali sry to him.......

well, ystd i watched triumph in the skies, very sad.. mon more sad... he kana accident... i gt tearss come out when i watched ystd episode, can feel the yishan pain tt she is stuck in bet two guys... n her hubby going away frm her.... hais. love really has no guarantee. it can changes anytime anywhere. all i can say is when u hae one cherish it, if u meet one grab it, if u touch wood lose it ,just let go, since is nt fated to be urs. ( thou sure will ver sad la)

alrite im out.. today boring dae.. nth to do sat.. i decided to read my drivin bk n watch vcd. lots to watch. gt time read my stock notes. heaven started practicing lol